Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
I am sorry. This man is too much for me on some days and today I feel hella misguided. really. I do. So I just look at him. I want to meet him someday. him and rufus wainwright. Odd pairing right ? Rufus is such a tortured soul, I want to talk to him and find out what he feels on a daily basis. Now that his mother died I wonder how much more tortured he could be, maybe not at all. Who knows.
Monday, April 26, 2010
Thursday, March 11, 2010
and here we are.
Then there is the whole roomate thing. We had a roomate who left abruptly, and basically left the top floor of our house a shit hole. Not cool. and of course, suddenly we are out a bit of money that we were used to. Has been an adjustment and a tough one at that. Too Boot my student load just increased to $600 a month. Which totally butt f#$k's me. in a bad way. Not good.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Friday, July 31, 2009
Summer is historically a time of great fun and busy times. Party to party, beach to beach. It has been nothing for us to be in Fire Island one weekend, Rehoboth the next, and then to Provincetown the following. Mix in the bag a little bit of Bucks County pool party lurvin, and you have in front of you our normal summer schedule.
This year has been wildly different. Not in a good way. I feel disconnected, and not ......normal. I've been giving a lot of thought to it this last week, as we close the final days of July.
In an honest attempt to paint myself in a more positive light, I understand our lives have been really "blessed", if you will, and that we are lucky boys to be able to travel and get invites and things. I know that we are totally fortunate in that regard. So I am not complaining. really am not.
Just trying to figure out why and how I got to feeling so socially detached. I think that we've gotten comfortable in not really making great efforts to connect with people outside of our immediate circle of friends. And I am not happy with myself in that way.
This summer started out really sad, I am not going to go into that right now, but sad is the only word to describe it, and I think we're still hungover from that sadness. Hopefully some of that is lifting, but I still feel foggy, disconnected and wonder what we did wrong.
Last night someone invited us to play Poker with people we don't know. We went and it was brilliant. Had so much fun. Connect the dots, and feel the rewards. Kevin also threw a really thoughtful party for my birthday last weekend. Which was really nice and I began to feel my heart beat a little bit.
Is it too late to start summer ?
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Monday, July 27, 2009
Anyway, my intent will go un-named right now, but I know that change is in the air.....and figuring that tattoo out might be just the way to start.
Monday, March 16, 2009
Well, here we go. Another week to start, feeling good about this week. Have a lot to do and a lot to sort through, but have to stay strong and focused on whats ahead.....whatever that is. Feels a lot like big change is coming, can't elaborate, but it's coming. For me......for my journey.
Am reading Wally Lamb's new book...and I am really liking it, moves me. So much does anymore, I guess my thirty something ass is finally getting it.
Recently found some new old songs. Annie Lennox, pure perfection.
Love you the most.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Hey. Some days you can win, or at least fake it and then some days you just suck it big time. Today feels like I am sucking it big time. Impossible to talk to someone who just isn't present. Not one bit. So often it feels like my age is not relevant. That the schoolyard chase was the only thing that really ever mattered. UGH !!!
But, in an effort to be a grown up who is focused on changing what I can, and making a difference with myself and not others.....
have you heard the Ting Tings ??? I love them. LOVE THEM.
Thinking of going running, but feeling a bit foggy for that too. Not sure what else to do right now, but one thing is for sure. I can do what I am doing.
Anyway - have a fun day and I will talk to You Later !!!!!!!!
Sunday, January 4, 2009
and the new year begins. with much ado. So many things to peek ahead for. What the economy will bring us, what our choices will land for us.
It's all so mysterious, isn't it ?
Well I just wanted to check in with you all. To let you know what was up in this part of town.
we went to see Milk yesterday. So so so powerful and moving. I could not stop sobbing after the movie. Such a nutbag I am. But i HIGHLY recommend it for you all. Sean Penn is uncanny in his work. James Franco is one hot little box. Totes.