I can't really say why, i am going to write today, under Mr Kermit. He's been in my memory for a long long time, and i am feeling a bit introspective today, so ........its fitting that Kermit is my header.

for some reason I've been really thoughtful about my social connections lately. Specifically in Philadelphia. I know a lot of people here, over the years, have been part of many social circles and squares for that matter. And yet, have not felt completely and totally secure, or safe...or happy in one. I know diversity is good, in friends....in education and in so many other aspects of our lives. But where I've come from, places I've been, I've always had a core group of friends who i can always lean on. If not one specific person, who sorta grounded me. Here, it's almost as if there are too many acquaintances and not enough solidarity in my social connections.

Originally I had a tight group of friends here, and most, almost (the italics are for you Hil) all of them are now disbanded to other things, to no one person's fault.

Anyway, most recently i guess I've been sensitive to the fact that I've watched some people,in some of these circles, grow closer and closer, and began to wonder .."why haven't we become that close with them ??" That sort of thing. In the end I know sometimes people just click, or sometimes they don't. I feel a little alienated lately though. And I don't like it. I don't like it at all. No Bah Humbug, just...Hmpf ???? (scratches head and plays Sarah McLachlin songs)

barracuda

ps. The deep v necks are not going to stop, at least for a while. sorry dude. i do so so appreciate any comment, even if it's to critique. Thanks. more more more.

the most cute. Noah man.

just frickin creepy. isn't it?

this picture captures the parade pretty well. These huge things moving slowly down the middle of Broadway. Very cool. Was a lot of fun. Sorry for the lack of posts, still getting back into life, and this week is totes busy. So enjoy some pictures for now.

things we see at the Philadelphia Marathon

keep the bourbon on the shelf

I think I got the Clap just from posting this picture on here, but there is something about Dax Shepherd, something very very dirty yes, but something that makes the monster move a little.

Thats all i know about that, and i can't comment anymore on what it all means.

What I will comment on is that it's Friday. It's been a day of good and bad news, and what i can choose to focus on is that I am OK. Things are OK.

We are still planning on doing NYC for Thanksgiving. Still trying to piece together the specifics on what and where we're doing it, but it looks like we'll hit the night on Thanksgiving night, chillin a bit on Wednesday, of course we'll be driving up the NJ Turnpike on Wednesday night, which also means that I'll be in a prescribed coma, as traffic jams and I go together like Tommy Lee and Kid Rock go together. Explosive.

Thats all folks.

Love you the most.

Nate

if its in my mind, it's on my face

Just cause. I was scanning someone else's blog and found this Country Western dude. A little cave man-ish, but altogether a hot piece.
Billy Currington.
Have no idea what his music sounds like, don't much care really....thats all i have to say about that.

So, I am feeling better, none of the crazies going on.....feeling totally grounded and on level playing field. As always, i've been trying to make some plans for the future....goals i should say. I've been eye-ing a program to be a Physician's Assistant....but am not too sure i can swing that. I would eventually have to quit working and just do the schooling piece.....I really want to try though, so i am registering, hopefully, for some prerequisite classes.
We'll see.
In other news.
New Music Tuesday worked me out this week. I am going to go broke because of Itunes. Honestly.
Alicia Keys, Seal, The Killers, and oddly enough, i have this very very disgusting pull to buy Celine Dion's new one. Odd. Odd and revolting. If you can help me, please feel free to.

So thanks for all the hotel hot tips people. Usually i get one or two comments on a request i have....alas, i've yet to hear anything.
Poor Nate.
Well, i do love you the most. some times, mostly if you leave a comment or two.

Resentment is the poison I drink in the hopes you'll die.

Hiny Hiders

I was in one of the airports, and as i was taking a leak and went to leave the bathroom i saw this. They actually call the hing thingy that keeps the stall door locked a HINY HIDER.
Can you stand it diane?
I simply cannot believe it.
At any rate. My sobriety continues and I've had the evening to myself at the house.....loud music and lots of incense. Thats all folks. Things are mucho serene tonight and today. I've had a good day. My man has had a horrible day, and yesterday too. Very busy at his job. My pie hole cries out for him and he ain't home from work yet. poor me...oh wait................Poor Kev. :( This weekend will have to be rejuvinating for him. I will make it so. Oppps, my thoughts turn dark. Gotta go, before this manic entry alienates all of you.

Remember, I love you the most.
Nate

sure looks good to me

Ben Cousins.

Perez just posted about him. I've been watching this for a while. One hot bitch. No question in my mind of the things he can do....or not do. You see he has some pretty severe problems with druggie poo. Yes, druggie poo has mostly messed his life up for good, but man.

The narrative of one of his most recent and offensive situations states that he was found driving with ecstasy, a rolled up dollar with traces of cocaine on it and some Viagra. The images. The dirty dirty thoughts of what that night might have looked like. yow. Just something about being bad, that is so so good.

on another note. Kevin and I are tossing around the idea of Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade. Our bud Chuck usually let's us stay wit him, but he's subletted the place and now we are tossing around the Hotel - or staying at someone else's place, but thinking a hotel might be fun. Suggestions ? Deals ?????

Going running outside today, not sure what that will be like, but looking forward to trying to get back into my fitness.....like Fergie Ferg. I want to run the NYC marathon next year.....i do. If Katie Holmes can do it. I was, by the way, very impressed with that. Good for her. I"ve always loved Joey.

and just leave little Suri alone, ain't her fault daddy is a nutjob.

BTW.
No One (Alicia Keys) is working me out. getting me through it......and, her new Album is on MTV.COM, under their Leaked links.
Good stuffs.

you don't appreciaaaate me

I don't know how or why, i missed the boat on Timbaland's CD. I am into it now, but man, how did i not get into The Way I Are when it first came out? That stupid song comes on and i start to hump the nearest pole. No shit.

So, Kevin took this photo of me in Jackson Square (?) and i loves it. of course, what you should know is that it wasn't posed, i passed out that way....... in the middle of the day. legs up in the air and shit.

I am feeling much better today. you see, well this will be long if i decide to explain it. OK here we go. Since we got back from Nawlins I have been feeling really dizzy and disoriented. To the point of tears a few times.....you see last year i went through a similar thing, and eventually went to the ER because I felt so bad. They never found anything and after about three weeks it went away, i went as far as to get put on some anti-vertigo medications. Well since we got back I've been feeling that same way again. It comes and goes, i am always fine at night time, but mornings until around 4 pm I am in a fog and feel like Britney (more on her in a minute) when she runs over some one's foot. Today felt better and I can't know why. I resigned myself last time that it was anxiety related.....and have been feeling like it's anxiety again. Which totally sucks, because nothing i do gets rid of it (other than to solve my big life issues...which ain't happenin any time soon). I don't know what to think really, but it blows snotty penis rot. Today feels better to some degree and I am grateful for that, and am trying to get work done and accomplish shit before i feel like i am on the Great American Scream Machine again .

Onward and upward.....

which way is down?

Whats up ladies? Starting to get myself in order for life, after a week of binge eating and excessive sleep. Like......a lot of sleep. I am not a sleeper at all, but this past week I have been all kinds of dozing and snoring. Along with that have come some really horrible dreams and shit. Crying in my sleep and everything. Odd. New Orleans wrecked me, absolutely wrecked me. And, made me realize/accept that age is important to pay attention to, as well as to start to re-evalute my limits.

I also haven't been to the gym in two weeks due to everything that has been going on, and my hotel in San Diego had no gym....i know that is also contributing to my sense of outer body-ness, but today marks a return, and this week will no doubt end up in mucho muscle pain.

I took this picture of kevin last week in the condo we rented. We had this huge ass chandelier in the living room area and i took this picture through the light !

I love this pic. It was next door to the condo we were staying in. I can't lie. There were a lot of beautiful places like this one. And it seemed like a charming place.....part of my issue was my own, personal state of mind while we were there. A little less thump thump of the disco ball, and perhaps we'd have been more in tune with things like this house.

fern frickin heaven. Hairy looking....like many of the mens we encountered down there.

just some hangin out in Nawlins. And oh, oh so dirty. I mean.they look so so so.....dirrrrrrrrrrty.