travel the world within my lips

I looked over to the Lat Pull Down Machine today and spotted it.

The reason to return.

Mind you, I'd already tried to get to the doctor's this morning (big toe is doing something nasty and hurts like a whore) and then went to the gym (forgoing my run due to said toe jam) and was moving along pretty nicely with a tough shoulder workout - when.....zoot alors - there it was !!!! quite possibly the biggest camel toe this side of Saudi Arabia.

I said at that moment "damn Nate, get back to blogging, the world needs to know about these things !!!"

I have been missing for a long time now - and I can't really cite one specific event or reason for having dropped off.....I can say, with a great amount of certainty and regret, that I've detached from a lot of things. I have let important friendships and goals fall away. I don't return calls, sometimes won't return emails.....and it's not because I do it with purpose...I just don't feel like it. And that's been selfish.

It's totally foolish to list the things i need to change in 2009....and I know that, but there is alot that has to be tweaked. So I am setting about doing that now. I have to get my shit together and plan on taking full advantage of the challenges ahead of me.

So my dear dear friends, please forgive for my detachment and poor follow thru. I do so regret it, but I am here now, and will be for some time. Winning blogger readership can be a tough road, i know that, but i had a good following for a while. So hold please, and judge later.

Love you the most.

Nate

Friday. And end of summer ish feelings.
lots to do and lots to do it with.
last few training days for a long race.
annual humungoid party.
fashion.
red wine.
a little fig candle action.
fabric.
cool nights with cool people.
wish you were here.

gotta get thru this

i can't keep myself and still keep you too

Although this picture is not so hot, this man is on our tv. he tells us the news, or weather, or something. I never really hear what he says. I am too busy thinking things. Dirty naughty things. Adam Joseph. He does triathalons too.

This might be a weekly installment. Hot news men...stay tuned.

In other news.

1. Love Lockdown - Kayne West = fab

2. Keeps Gettin Better - Christina A. = outstanding

3. Big Girl Now - New Kids on the Block and Lady Ga Ga = guilty pleasure = very gay

Facebook. Is so overwhelming to me. In one day's time I have so many people to update on my life, so many years later...I can't find enough time. And oh baby...it feels so good.

My college days were so outstanding and over the top...i knew so so so many people and had significant loss issues over the years, and now they are all back. Full force.

I was in a fraternity...Pi Kappa Phi and all of a sudden we're connected and all those sororities....connected. I am beginning to organize a reunion for January in NYC. Keepin me busy.

Whats up with you all ? How is everyone ? Comments please.

Now.

whacha think about that

Dude.
Like.
I think I hate working. A lot. More later. Love you the most.
Nate

the smell of sweat and leather

Cindy McCain whoring out her adopted daughter from Bangladesh = ungood
Cindy McCain’s hair = good

Chace Crawford naked on TV = good
Chace Crawford being the hotter Nate = ungood

Training hard for the Philly Half Marathon = good
Struggling with said training = ungood

Having lots of parties and invites in September = good
Having to behave because of training for the Philly Half Marathon = ungood

Facebook = good
Not being able to find specific people on facebook = ungood

Comfort in your own skin = good
Tightening of your skin due to aging = ungood

lovers are losing

DCCXXIV

Good morning. This, up above, is going to be my new tatoo.......maybe. I am trying to come up with something new and fun.....and smallish for my chest.......What does you think ? It has some meaning. Who can figure it out?

I am officially back to the blog. Really. I am. I needed a little break for reasons unknown. Honestly, but since Brit Brit is going to be back on the VMA's, I need to respect and show up for my 3 fans.
Ok ? Ok

triggering your senses.

Hey there folks.
So the weekend was great fun. We went tubing down the Delaware River all day on Saturday. It took around 4 hours, not a lot of current, some slow spots of heavy rowing.....but it was totes fun and the weather was amazing. It was a group of gays...16 of us, Steve did a great job of getting it all together and making sure we had a great time.
Anyway, we spent yesterday chillin in our back yard and having a nice Indian buffet. Not much else to report on actually, just feeling great with the weather and everything going well. This upcoming weekend we have a few potential plans...beach is one of them but not sure we are going to go.
Chadds Forge Winery is also a potential fun spot.....we'll see where the trouble takes us. Whats up with everyone else ?????
Hope everyone's summer is winding down nicely, i'll have more to write about soon. Just been busy training for the half marathon and getting my head on straight....so easily distracted.

PS - if you are a runner and have the ipod.....download the runkeeper application.......amazing !!!!

untouched

Ain't gonna lie. No motivation to write in here lately. It's not because of any mah-jor drama or anything. Just sorta not been feeling it too much lately.
Which isn't to say i am not sorry for being so lame. I am sorry, and am going to try to do a better job at getting my junk together.
This weekend was pretty great, Friday night we blew it out......and I fully admit to being old now. I cannot groove like i used to. That is for sure and that is the truth. No more frisky bounce back nights. It took me a full day to feel human again and get myself in order for the public to see me. I also admit.............I don't feel bad about being so prone to recovery. I don't have to go out all the time anymore, and feel pretty happy about that.
I can say that Kevin and I both, were in need of a good night out, a good freak fest. And we got it. Tria, Knock, Twirl, Pure. We got it all !!!!!!! Sorry if we offended anyone, it's just the way it be.
Going to Atlantic City tomorrow, beach day and a little BlackJack. Good times good times.
Hope everyone is doing well and I will talk to you later sass.

Who am I ?

I am really sorry that I haven't been around. Been getting back to life after work. My office moved so work and everything has been kicking my butt a little. Not feeling very organized. I am doing the Philly Distance Run again, it's in the middle of September, so training for that really picks up now. It's all good !!
I got this email, and man. thumbs up dude.

Dina Martina.
Come see my show today, it's going to be fun, my friends are all coming....plus it's the lords day.

the view from our deck !! captain jack's wharf.

our phat deck......in the stormy gray sky ...

it was also my birthday while we were away. My men got me a little party and we went off to see Dina Martina

Back from vacation. Trying to get good. It's tough when you've been on hold from the real world for over a week. We were in Ptown for 7 days.....and it was just wonderful, although a little less than heaven, because it truly rained for most of the time we were there. This was taken on Friday, the one truly sunny day we had.............we rented a little boat and went out on the water. Good times were had by all, i think all the food and alcohol will make it hard for me to fit in some clothes now, but hey. What else could we do at Paradise during a hurricane ?
More pictures. coming.

the sand is dry and clean.
the air is crisp and cape-ish.
the memory is constant.
see you there and wish you were here.

AN EMAIL FROM SEPHORA TO NATHAN:



Dear Beauty:
You're officially a beautiful blip on our birthday radar - 2 weeks to go! Be sure to get your Beauty Insider birthday gift, a generous 2.5 oz helping of Sephora Vanilla Cupcake Bath & Shower Bubbles. Now you can have your cake - and shower with it, too.
Pick up your present at your local Sephora or visit sephora.com.




So. I buy some of my things from Sephora. In fact I LOVE SEPHORA. I hate that I love Sephora, it's so so girlish and gayish....in the same breath...how can i live without Sephora. Ok ok, enough with the dramatics.

WHY NATHAN CANNOT FOCUS TODAY:

• Provincetown is waiting for us to land very very soon. (we drive through the night and we drive because we have dogs to bring with us. we get there really early, like 10 am, and sit our butts down at Bubula's By The Sea and have cocktails until we can pick the keys up for our house)
• This weekend is jammed full of fun. Almost more than I can handle. Tonight is a party and Chi Chi LaRue and Johnny Hazard are going to be there......it's a special invite only kind o thing and it's a lot of fun. It's for the Philadelphia Gay Film Festival. Tomorrow is a pool party and lots of bad behavior in Buck's County.
• It's Friday.
• We had an awesome night last night at the XPONENTIAL festival...sitting on the waterfront eating on the grass and listening to music. (some funky music....if you've never heard of the BLIND BOYS OF ALABAMA...google them. Gospel.)
• I decided to try to train for the Philadelphia Marathon with a gaggle of people.
• Kevin is cute.
• It's sunny.

Thats all i know for now. Happy Friday Peeps....see you out and about....

Nate.

PS - Hugh E Dillion. check you tonight.

we are family ! Love you meridith !

It's just that kind of day. With so much to look forward to, and so much to do. i had to sit down and write some lists last night to get my head on straight and make sure EVERYTHING was taken care of....it helped me to feel more in control....I was feeling like my old brain was letting some small details go. Something I would not be good with................Ptown is moving closer to us and this weekend is jammed packed, starting tonight. Our summers are always so dense with stuff to do, and it's a little bit o wonderful.
Alright, off to work ladies.
Talk to you soon.

Bonum Creek / Kinsale, VA.......living easy !!!

you say one thing, do another...

Ah. Monday morning in Philadelphia. I ride my bike past the Liberty Bell, Independence Hall, and Washington Square Park to get to work. Some days I think about the history, often I do actually, and then a lot of days, I just let life steer me through the most historic places in America without a node to Ben Franklin. It is Monday after all, and I've alot to achieve. Nothing like establishing freedom or letting anything ring....but it's a job anyway.

Have a good day people and remember, no one likes slacker.

shhhhhhhhhh

Meridith's apples.

Black and Gold

10 things I love about you:

1. Anouk. & So You Think You Can Dance. There has been at on of blogging about Anouk’s song Lost. It is working me out. In such a beautiful, mind blowing way. So pretty. Check it out on Itunes. The afore mentioned show is amazing and fun…minus some of the loud commentary.

2. Summer. I love it and want it all year round. It helps me. It helps me breath easier. And fuller.
3. Running. I am full tilt running. It’s also helping me deal and be a better person.

4. Recognizing that where ever I go, there I am.

5. Jo Malone. Simply the best. If you don’t know what I mean, google it.

6. Beer Pong. This weekend when we went to Baltimore we played Beer Pong, as we did when we were in Vegas…..muchachos fun.

7. The promise of an Iphone. I will have one soon, one way or another.

8. Sam Sparro (in picture above). Not typically my kind of music, has a definite 80’s sound, which I sorta don’t love anymore, but he’s good, really gets me moving on my runs. Good stuff…..and gay and cute-ish.

9. Noah getting better. He was sick sick sick all week long. He ate a ton of mulch over the weekend (while we were playing beer pong) and we think the mulch had cocoa in it, which some mulches do. Cocoa is chocolate, and dogs and chocolate don’t go together very well.

10. Going to the movies alone. I went to see Indiana Jones last night, by myself, and had a fabulous time. (that little shia, he be hot-ish)

one smile and no body else will do

In all my life. I've wanted to be on stage. All my life, i've been a major player in the movie in my mind. I've imagined every kind of trick and scene change you can put out there. It's all very true. And after all these years the bug is still biting me. Honest.

As a kid, I think acting and being on stage was a way out for me. I was an only child with a pretty nutty stage setting, and acting and stuff.....it was living a life I didn't have and that was fun.

Of course, now I know I have to live the life I've got, but I still play in my mind. Always theatrical, and always....always bigger than life.

I also think about what it would have been like had I gone to SUNY at New Paltz for acting, rather than SUNY at Plattsburgh for Psychology. Two contrasts, not much use mulling at this point. But I do.

So, the picture. It's from Broadway Bares....in NYC. I've always wanted to get up to NYC to see it, but never really made it. Not fair for me, but it's my choice to go or not to go. I know.

I think the picture stands for itself.

I am ready for my close up. For sure.

get out of my way today lady friend. I've got a lot to do and it all started like this. in my bed. gun loaded and ready to blaze. so move aside and let the shit get done.

Just a shout out to Shanon and Kotula and the rest of the crew. It was fun !!! Even though I left a day early, it was great to see everyone !!