Tuesday, January 30, 2007

don't give the ghost up.

Is it fair?
Have you heard My List, by The Killers? It's out of this world.
My mom is visiting this week. Sorry for lack of posts. Sorry for lack of interest right now too. I am just so excited, and you should have known by now, you are on my list.

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Thursday, January 25, 2007

shock shock me

A fast fast apology for such blatant, objectification of the male torso and consequent naughty parts. I have posted far too many lifted pictures of men. It's sorta annoying, as well as my spelling, but thats another day i guess.
Weighing in:

  • I am proud of Linds.
  • Mika, Matt White, and Goldfrapp are constantly spinning in my little pod.
  • I miss Fischerspooner.
  • I can't control replaying the first minute of "Say it Right" ova and ova.
  • I AM VERY much hoping to bump into Britney in Vegas.
  • She is def. little girl lost.
  • The Departed made me @*it myself, and i lurved it.
  • Dlisted.com is quickly becoming one of my fav sites to read/obsess over.
  • Everybody's gonna love today, gonna love today, gonna love today. Anyway you want to, anyway you've got to (Love today - Mika)

isn't anyone tryin to find me


Chad White. I am on the wagon. Initially i thought it was nice and he was nice to look at. More and more i have begun to appreciate him for much more.......actually I lie, it was one thing in specific. The new Diesel ad. I couldnt' seem to find a pic it, but its right purty. He is so classically handsome.
And then, well.....Kevin got his head buzzed, and it looks amazing, he looks real good....and he looks a bit like Chad White...
if i'm lyin' i'm dyin'
Anyway.
The start of this day, this day which has the potential to turn bitter cold, started with an event that caused me to well up in tears.
This morning, like every other morning, I walked Noah.
All of a sudden I hear our neighbor scream out her dog's name, about 12 houses away......and then i hear growling....and fast fast fast dog running.....without time to turn around to see what the hell was going on, the dog was on top of us, and at this point i had no idea who the dog was going to attack. As it turns out, the dog grabbed Noah above his shoulder blades.....immediately i got between the two of them (keep in mind that there was a lot of noise, scary dog kill dog noises), which was stupid overall....but yanked Noah out of the way - his collar came off and i gave the other doggie a swift kick.....and then he just turned to go back to his mom.
Kevin came running outside and by that time all was ok....about two minutes later, i started to shake and i got a little tearful.....
Good Morning to you too huh? Anyway, the day has gone up and better, and Noah is fine...if not sturdy. Me too.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007


It was snowing this morning when I went to work. I stopped at Cosi for a yogurt parfait....so good.....and more than likely so bad...

There is a counter boy there, who is young, and sorta ........well sometimes looks tired and sometimes looks like a good shower is in order. As he gives me my change he says "is it wet or sticky?"
Immediately i say "i think it's sticking"....fully knowing that my head is covered in snow and white....and that he was obviously talking about the snow.
I liked to start my public day fun like that. I told him that perhaps in the future he would think of rephrasing that question.

We booked the flight and hotel to Las Vegas, for very soon....real cheap. Staying in the MGM Grand. I am thrilled and excited and thrilled again. A cute little get away. Now. Suggestions on things we must see/do. I know that it's going to be a long three days....i am prepared for it. .....and am already having anxiety about those stupid rides at the Stratosphere........I will regret forever if i don't get on them...but the thought of it makes me pee.

Alright - enjoy Tuesday.
Nate
PS - this is Cristano Ronaldo.....confused i guess.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

baby girl...where you at?



Bro.

Put some clothes on for gootness sake.

Random thoughts on a Thursday....i mean, is it really Thursday already? It seems that because we got so so intoxicated on Monday, i missed a day...like, it got skipped. I emailed our friends on Wednesday and expressed how wonderful i felt compared to the previous day.....reborn. That was how i felt. Newly inspired to get my shizzle together. And this weekend will prove to be nice and slow. and nice and calm, and nice.

About two weeks ago kevin and i started to play raquetball again. We used to play all the time, and it would get pretty intense....of course there is no referee, so we have to determine an accurate call on some of the plays......intense is a word i can use. It was all in good fun, all good. So anyway, we started to play this again, it sorta fades in and out of our fashion (sorta like capri's on men)......since we started (we played three days in a row) I have not been able to run or walk correctly. I seemed to have pulled some muscle or nerve or piehole.....on my lower butt muscle on my right cheek. And i wanted to really begin training for some distance runs. I am mad about it.

In other news, I am trying to get us organized to go to Vegas for a short trip...the sales are so so low right now, with hotel. Is there any hotel that we should absolutely avoid? Any that are reasonable?

Anyway - enjoy the day.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

asunder

Yes you.
Today has been a challenging day. Directly a result of being stupid last night and spending way too much time socializing and cocktailing.......very stupid indeed.
When i started my journey into work this morning I began agonizing about how long the day seemed, and i hadn't even stepped foot into the office. Anyway, I have two more hours to go and i am counting the seconds.

In my line of work I have become very familiar with crying. I listen to others manuveur around emotionally charged issues and watch them suffer, only to help them wipe the tears aside and move on. Most recently though, i have been made aware that being around the tears of my loved ones can be much different than those i encounter in my profession.
I recently sat by while a loved one emptied a lot of pain, and it was so uncomfortable for me, to not be able to take it away and minimize the hurt. It was then that i realized that it's all purposeful. Crying is purposeful. It clears the way to discovery.
And, it's uncomfortable. And it's ok !!! And i am here. And sometimes, thats enough.

Monday, January 15, 2007

umm, Mondays suck.


i hate mondays.
officially.
Until recently I had felt indifferent about Mondays. However, in light of my new feelings of fear.....i have decided to hate Mondays.
So wish me luck in getting through this day.
The new HX Philadelphia had a picture of this man in it's glossy little pages.
He's a Chippendale.
and i am not. Instead, i creepily post pictures of Chippendales on my Blog.
I hate Mondays.

Saturday, January 13, 2007

I hope you don't mind

This is Heather Headley.....I was at Splash in NY a while back and this came on the video screen.....love it !!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, January 11, 2007

i like to watch a thousand times

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Mr. Shears is dirty, with a big D.

time out from the world

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I've been midly fascinated lately by artsy types of things......images mostly, and this one....for whatever reason, really gave me an uneasy feeling in my breath. All the same i like it. Morbid. I know. I know.
Last night, we spent a great deal of much-deserved, laugh time. We watched JackA** part 2. Timing was right. It felt good.
one needs to feel good.
I made a new smart playlist today.
Goldfrapp
Indigo Girls
Corrine Bailey Rae
you tell me whats goin on?

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

you either got it....or you don't

The New Year.
It's like a bad dream, in some ways. I ain't being dramatic, and I won't garnish the story with glittery words and snappy phrases.
But it's gotten too wierd to ignore in the blog anymore.
As some of you may know, my father and i began talking on the phone in the last year. He was long since gone, a silenced character in the screen play that is my life. Somehow, we connected and he seemed ok. His body revolting against him after a lifetime of alcohol and severe drug abuse. The laundry list of disease and infection is endless. He left my life in 1995 to go to a rehab in Florida, and he never made it out of Florida, he still lives there. Fittingly he has lived with another man, who was in worse shape medically, than my father is. Bedridden and unable to wash himself.
I got a call last Tuesday - the man my father took care of for the last 10 years shot himself in the head, and my father found him. Clearly traumatized, my father cannot stop sobbing and weeping....he is a MESS. He has called me at 3:30 in the morning - for no apparent reason than to cry...which is fine, I do that for a living - listening to folks when they are going through bad bad times.....but it's taken a turn. I was out on Saturday (as you saw in some pictures) and he called me. His message said something to the effect that there was something else about him that I should know...........about he and the man he lived with...............Um? Hello?......

to be continued.

Monday, January 8, 2007

til it happens to you

The pictures. every year, since the beginning of the 1900's there has been such a thing called the Mummer's Day Parade. It is held on New Year's Day every single year. What the history is - you can look it up. For people like myself, the day is a day when all the crazy folk come out and drink till they either 1. puke 2. get into fisticuffs 3. have sex with strangers 4. puke and get arrested at the same time.
Mind you, none of that has happened to us. We did piss outside several times, and our friend Ryan almost got the shit beat out of him, but we avoided all the usual problems. Anyway - it was cancelled NE Day due to rain, and it happened on Saturday. FUN! thats all i know. Fun and we took around 250 pictures. insane.

Sunday, January 7, 2007

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Mummer

This will all make sense later. When i explain what the hell the mummer's day parade is !

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knees of your bees

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Thursday, January 4, 2007

just keeps holding me down


So. This is horrible. I have to watch 24 this season. I fell away from it last couple years. The plot lines too far fetched and too dramatic for drama's sake....and sometimes, just sometimes, i think jack bauer outta take a chilll pill.
However. i spy. I spy one of my all time hotties. Eric Balfour. And after i just googled him, i found out many many things about him. He was on the first season of 24...who knew? Also - he was on Kids Incorporated along with Ms. Fergie. And he appears in the video for Fergalicious, and one of my most fun scarey movies...texas chainsaw massacre.
Anyway. He will be with me in 2007 as it turns out too. Things have a way of working out now, don't they?
So as for our New Year weekend. I posted some pictures. without any text, and for that I am sorry dear friends. Friday Saturday and Sunday - we had parties and obligations. Which was great and wonderful. By Sunday mid day I was pooped. Which meant that our plans for New Year's Day were wiped out. We actually putzed around the house Monday - watching some movies and ordering dellicious take out.
What I know is that the weekend was full of people who mean so much to me. People, for the most part, who mean the world to me. For that I am grateful, some were missed, some were not. It was a nice way to end and begin what could have been one of my toughest and what will hopefully be better. Anyway - Happy New Year and i hope you all get what you deserve. I really do. Having said that, i hope what you deserve is only good!!!!!!!!!!!!.

Tuesday, January 2, 2007

Nothing without love...without love

Kevin in all his glory. So cute !!!!!!!!!!!

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Aude

Baby New Year never had a chance. At John and Tim's dinner party New Year's Eve. Perfect


And...was no donut for miles........mister smarty pants...if you knew me, you'd know that i am def. a cornflake girl.
But i did come to know that as i enlarged the picture, all you could see was lines....of wrinkles and that just sucks. EWWWWWWWWWWW
so anonymous...sorry but no cigar.

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and.....one last time

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Kevin and His Willy

Apparently Kevin only wanted to take pictures with Willy !!

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on the good ship lollipop

Happy Holidays from Nate and Kevin !!!!

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what have i done to deserve this?

who/what do i look like in this picture. So funnny. This was Saturday night in Baltimore.

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