i come undone in this mad season

Summer is historically a time of great fun and busy times. Party to party, beach to beach. It has been nothing for us to be in Fire Island one weekend, Rehoboth the next, and then to Provincetown the following. Mix in the bag a little bit of Bucks County pool party lurvin, and you have in front of you our normal summer schedule.
This year has been wildly different. Not in a good way. I feel disconnected, and not ......normal. I've been giving a lot of thought to it this last week, as we close the final days of July.
In an honest attempt to paint myself in a more positive light, I understand our lives have been really "blessed", if you will, and that we are lucky boys to be able to travel and get invites and things. I know that we are totally fortunate in that regard. So I am not complaining. really am not.
Just trying to figure out why and how I got to feeling so socially detached. I think that we've gotten comfortable in not really making great efforts to connect with people outside of our immediate circle of friends. And I am not happy with myself in that way.
This summer started out really sad, I am not going to go into that right now, but sad is the only word to describe it, and I think we're still hungover from that sadness. Hopefully some of that is lifting, but I still feel foggy, disconnected and wonder what we did wrong.
Last night someone invited us to play Poker with people we don't know. We went and it was brilliant. Had so much fun. Connect the dots, and feel the rewards. Kevin also threw a really thoughtful party for my birthday last weekend. Which was really nice and I began to feel my heart beat a little bit.
Is it too late to start summer ?