coldness........and memory. 

As gay gay gay as it is, these underwear are my new fav.....and these pictures....you gotta ask yourself...can it get any more gay than this.? gnich gnoch.... 

venus fly traps.........also create your own story here, but man would i love one of these here at home...seymour, come and get it..... 

these pads were like 5 feet wide....no shit....can you believe it? 

reflections 

eery little scene no? Lovesit. 

these little beetles where everywhere, only on this one flower though, it's taste must be like an orgasm to these little fuckers. 

I have no idea why my hair looks orange...it ain't orange or blond, it's brown, shit brown......but it looks totally Batman Joker Orange (Jim Carrey) in this picture...look at the other one of me in the reflection, not orange....this one orange. Why god, why?

a little alien for you.... how strange huh? fuzzy little thing. 

you must make your own conclusions........really go ahead diane, what do you make of this? 

stooooopid like you

I just pissed my pants when i scrolled down to see this picture of our darling little Love. I don't know why i think it's so funny, i mean it's obviously funny - but I think i connect to it instantly because it looks like many twisted, tweeked messes i have seen in my efforts to conquer the world.
I lifted it off of
this hilabulous site. i love love it. Go check this site out. Now prease.
The Jessica Simpson beatings are hella hilarious.

pissin on the present

I am going to start out my post with this picture.
Jack rabbit sex, one of the most fucking sexfabulous moments
just take a minute to remember....and when he turned to her in the ceremony and mouthed "fuck you" to her. Lovesit.


My boss just came into my office to talk about a client. she used a phrase, a catch phrase if you will, that fully illustrates some feelings i may or may not have right now.

She said of the client.
"He has one foot on the past, one on the future...which only means he's pissing on the present."

well said my dear old girl. well said.
What i've wanted, what i want, and lastly......... what i have. Past, Present, and Future.
who the fuck knows.

All i know is that....well, i am not one who has always done butt or legs exercises at the gym, they are sorta just there, thin legs, but toned and nice..but....flat ass. No question about that. Baby ain't got back, ain't got it man, just don't.
More and more though i see a guy in a pair of jeans that poke out in the back and come back round to hit the small of his back...and i think to myself "it's genetic" and i want it.
And in some people it is genetic, like, big bubbles.....they have to be genetic. Kevin has been working out his ass for a while now, and as he is the new stud of the east coast, clearly it has been working. It has actually blown up. Of course, he is able to create muscle very easy...he's lucky like that...and eat absolutely any damn thing he wants, but i digress.

So yesterday I go to start my new Bubbalicious workout. It hurts mommy. Really hurts.
Yes you might say i am trying to round out my workout, and yes it's a result of two weekends in Fire Island, and yes you are sick of hearing about Fire Island. But it's consuming me. A little. again, i love it. And the impact it has on your self identification can be severe. At least for me. I am an individual and i know it, i know that people think kindly of how i look, for the most part, but there is a part of me that is drawn to the drastic style that some gay boys had on the island, and in general in nyc. i don't think that there was a cookie cutter feeling there. The muscle heads are generally the same, but the men were really not all like that.
Anyway - i forgot about this, but there were these two guys who were dancing next to kevin and i at one point. Kevin didn't shut up about them for a couple hours, at least. They were both like 6'10 or something and kev could not believe it. They were both blond, very blond and VERY VERY smokin,,,,,i instantly identified the beauty there, but was totally surprised that kevin was so taken out by them, i think the height had something to do with it, since kevin is usually one of the tallest...
and most beautiful.
have a good one.
natie

difficult kind

just for fun, since i am so empty. is it bad? to be empty? any guess yet?

bondage

so i have figured out said porn star's porn name. Think naomi watts, scary movie. thats all i'm sayin. let's play a game if we can.
give me the name of the gentleman who displaced nate on saturday night.

in other news. i am empty this week, mostly. not much feeling surrounding anything, just tired. thats the feeling. tired.

i can't stop eating sushi.
i guess thats something.
enjoy.
i am boring.
today.

Back from the Pines Party - physically, that is, not totally mentally back yet. It was a decidedly excessive weekend, but in the simplest way, a beautiful weekend.
Couple of things:

To the Pines in general: I am now addicted to your over - the - top lifestyle. Although I know I will never live the life of a True Pinian, I very much want to get a share there next summer and be a poser.

To the piece of wood that made me fall: I know that I should not be walking on the beach at 3 in the morning and I also know that I should be more careful. What I did not know was that I was going to look like a train hit me head - on once I tripped on the walkway in front of 389 Neptune Walk. I fell, thankfully no one was with me or saw me.....my fingers, knees and elbows have mucho cuts on them now.

To the Real Estate Agent / Porn Star from the Pines Party: I am still trying to process everything you said and did on Saturday night. I flip flop and feel bad more than good when i try to put it in place. When you came over to talk to us, I immediately knew that i was in trouble as you barely knew i was standing next to my husband. The way you stared at him so close to his face made me feel uncomfortable, even a little anxious. When you realized that i was his boyfriend, it was nice of you to ask if we did threesomes, instead of just trying to take my bf away by himself. I really appreciate that. I also appreciate it when you asked me if you were making me mad. What i can't really appreciate is the way you looked at me, touched my chest and said "I mean, your cute too, but he is the most beautiful man" Somehow that didn't translate well for me. In the end, after you came up to us several times, i know you got along with your night as i saw you with someone else.......and i came to a strong realization about my relationship and my man. So, the bottom line is that i thank you for helping me see something in a new way, you could have been a little more respectful to me though.....so try a different strategy next time and what is your porn name Frederic? So we can see some of your work.

To kevin: Thank you for handling that situation as well as you did. It is flattering to have one of the most beautiful men we have ever seen want to get with you, and difficult to handle on many levels for sure. I am not sure how I would have handled it, but feel you did the best you could.....

To the man who thought he was floating and was in a g hole. I hope you are alright, it was really one of the most ghastly things I have ever seen in my life. i thought your eyes were going to pop out of your head, and was truly worried you were going to need fast medical attention. I am glad your friends were helping you out though and hope you are ok.

Have a good Tuesday everyone, and remember to relax, lifes too short. and the movie in your mind can be anything you want it to be.
Natie