Friday, December 28, 2007

holiday


Diggin this photo of Mr. Law. He be hot. Only reason for posting that pic is becursse i likey like.
Anyway, going to gamble a little bit this weekend, and the most annoying thing is that I can't get onto any Black Jack sites here at work, totally frustratin. Totes. When we went to Vegas I got the best little cheat sheet for Black Jack. I'd like to be able to find it, but i can't . Very annoying that i lost it, wonder if Kevin has his.
Anyway, sorry for the mundane post, I am fudging my way through another Friday, only a two day work week, which is totally fab, but still not looking forward to work on Monday already !!!!!

Hope everyone has a great weekend, and that you take care of yourselves. It's a tough thing to remember to do that during the holidays. It sometimes seems like other things take priority, but we can't do it all. (we skipped two parties this week because we knew we couldn't handle it)
hope everyone is well and we'll talk more on Monday.
Love you the most.
Nate

Thursday, December 27, 2007

Not really. Not really into this New Year's Eve. Can' t say why, other than the fact that I feel bad, physically. Not totally feelin better since a few weeks ago when my mom was here. She also got a cold, a real bad cough and laryngitis............it seems like we caught the same thing, although i have a sore throat still. I am definitely not myself. Going through another round of antibiotics to hopefully kick this crap. Our Christmas was totally wonderful and relaxing. Going to Kevin's parent's house is nice at the holidays. I just wasn't myself, so I feel bad that it might have impacted kevin's mood while we were there, but I tried to be cheerful. Kevin has off for the whole week and I have to work which is slightly annoying !!!!!!!
Sorry to be Debbie Downer, it's just not my good place right now. No way around it. Hopefully working out tonight will lift me up a bit.
Hope everyone is good and had a safe Holiday !!!!!

Friday, December 21, 2007

Stay Down mother f#@er

(Stay Down) We're almost to the very best part.
(Stay Down) You'll always be the pride of my heart.
(Stay Down) We too can past the test
(Stay Down) Yeah we got a lot of work.
(Stay Down) I know it ain't been the best but it certainly ain't been the worst.
(Stay Down) The drama will not last forever
(stay down) we'll beat it as long as we're together.
One day we'll look back on this , we'll be like 'remember this?'
and it's gonna make us smile 'cause in the end we stayed down..

hit the floor


Last night.
Was fun.
Holiday cheer and close-ish friends. Got a little buzzed and ate about 15 little brie and raspberry wontons. So frickin good. I really spent a lot of time in my head last night. It was fun. I just observed a lot and enjoyed my-self. I noted a few things.
Another couple we know, they've immersed themselves in almost every social network available. It's skillful and fun to watch as I'm always amazed at how ambi dextrious they are at flipping through circles.
Also, we were donned Philly's most attractive couple, by someone who'd been drinking since lunch time. LOL.
toobadsosad.
Also what i learned. Our friend BD has big balls. Good times.
Oh - Duran Duran newest is funfunfun.
And Mary J. AggressiveBlidge's new cd is fairy good, fairy good.


Thursday, December 20, 2007


I will wipe that smirk right off your face mr. Get in this office right now !!!!!!!!





I thought this was important. I was waiting for Kevin yesterday in a coffee shop, scanning some very masculine editions of Vogue. They profiled this little boy in one of their pages. Robert Fairchild, a dancer in the NYC Ballet. I almost spilled my non - fat steamed milk and honey all over my blazer. The picture in the magazine was all glossy and pretty, and just shown a spot light on his..........errrr, um, strong..very strong legs and thighs. Anyway, he's apparently a hot little number on the stage....and only on the stage, i am sure in other areas he's simply a bore.

Monday, December 17, 2007

I can't stop it


There is not much i can say about this whole santa speedo thing. The one thing I can be sure of ? Official notice to the boy in the middle, i love, love, love..............your......hat (?) for reals, wow. WOW.
Other news? Not much news. Thats the news. Not much going on. Went to a party on Friday and Saturday nights, skipped one on Sunday because I was not feel well at all. I still have a kickin cold, and it was bad this weekend. Today I woke up and felt pretty damn good though. j This week is going to busy, and nice. The holidays are always fun in our world, so I can't wait for Friday to come and head to visit with Kevin's family for a few days. Gettin out of philly is nice, and just relaxing with alot of calories and carbs !!! LOL
I also can't wait to see Sweeney Todd. My senior year in high school I was in the play. I was the Beadle. My character got sliced and diced for some loverly Mince Meat Pies. I got killed in the Barber chair and dumped backwards down a slide into Ms. Lovett's Pie Shop. Good times. It was cool, I was cool.
LOL
Anyway, boy in the middle. Nice hat.

Friday, December 14, 2007

Fibroadnexal Hamartoma


The vet called yesterday. Noah had a Fibroadnexal Hamartoma, which was and is not cancerous. Against all odds, I mean for real....he is going to be fine and we cannot believe it. JUST CAN"T believe it. Thank you for the well wishes or whatever you all did. This little sucker is a trooper and will prolly out live all of us !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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it's green


Hello mom. This is my mom and i (nate) a few years back decorating our tree at our house here in Philly. We haven't gotten ours yet this year, but it's coming, tonight or tomorrow. For sure !!! Happy Holidays....
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Thursday, December 13, 2007

where in the world

Where have i been? Well, it's not been pretty. Honest. Been pretty sick and miserable, trying to pull it together and have tolerable days, but it's been tough. On so many levels. This cold has me up a good portion of the night, i've even resorted to ambien to help with some sleep, but it hasn't been working too much. So, not only sick, but much tiredness going on.
Noah is not well, he had his tumor taken out and it's been pretty awful. Because he can't touch the incision and it itches real bad, he is going nuts....running about the house like a madman. The sad news, and really terrible thing is that when the vet did the surgery she said it was very severe and that she hadn't seen a tumor like that, the blood supply to it was immense. She also said it was more than likely cancerous. For those of you who know us, you know what a blow this is, those who know kevin specifically. Noah was kevin's dog before i was his boyfriend, and very little comes between this man and his dog. So please, well wishes for Noah and our household.
Speaking of madmen......oh never mind, needless to say it's been a tough week on the relationship and hopefully the holiday spirit will prevail.
Not to be a total downer, sorry folks, it's not all terrible....just feeling the blues a little and am hoping for the best. Really what i want is for my throat to stop feeling so raw and horrible and to be able to get some sleep. Oh and for Noah to get a clean bill of health !!!! Here's to hope and to that cute little Dan-man from Gossip Girl (above)...where did he come from?

Thursday, December 6, 2007

bottle it up


Montreal is only about 45 minutes from where i grew up. Walking to school in -10 degree weather was pretty typical in the winter months. Ice and snow ruled our lives from November till April, in a big way.
I played Ice Hockey from around 1st grade up until I was almost graduated from High School. I was always really good, the assistant captain and played a solid right wing. So many memories from those times.....getting up at 4 in the morning to play in Canada and freezing my little boy arse off. I love the game, have let it slip away from my passions, but want very much to play some time in the future. The problem is that it's SO SO SO time consuming and I just can't forfeit my social obligations with Hockey. Not now anyway.
The point of this? To get to know Nate a little more, and well.
This morning as I took the train to work.....i bought these hot little black boots last week, I LURV them, except when the ground is covered with ice. I broke my ass twice today.
I wished my old pair of Bauer's to appear on my feet, as i giggled through the pain.
Ta ta
Nate

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

nasty reputation as a cruel dude


These two weeks, or more, my gym routine has been cut in half by life and it's things. First it was Thanksgiving stuff and last week it was kevin's birthday. This week, it's my mom visiting. And it feels horrible, just horrible i say.
But enough with typical banter. enough i say.

Everybody wants to touch some body, if it takes all night.
......No Body wants to go home now, theres too much going on.

If you can't tell, this week I've rediscovered the Eagles old stuff. Really loving it. I grew up on their drum kicks and fancy lyrics. So much so that i find myself wanting to party it up when listening to them. Heartache Tonight, The Long Run, Witchy Woman, One of These Nights....goes on and on.

Anyway, Noah is in surgery today, getting a lot of work done. The last 24 hours have been really emotionally charged. He's a trooper though, and i have no doubt in the world he will have any problems. Such a little man. So, good thoughts for our little man, and for Kevin to make it through today without too many boxes of tissues.

Love you the most.
Nate

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Nate Waldorf Must Eat Pie


We are the New Gossip Girl.
thas all i sayin blair. thas all.

Monday, December 3, 2007

the world carries on without


This post has nothing to do with this picture. But i felt this picture needs some more air time. Suspenders never looked so dirty.
Anyway. I am still scratching my head about the weekend. I am def. sitting in Monday feeling a bit twisted in my brain. Also had a sleepless night last evening. more on that later though.

So my mom, sorta surprisingly rolls into town Saturday, which is great...she is here for the whole week. It's so nice to have her here.
Saturday night saw us at a fab party and ....well it was a bit, oh man, I can't elaborate too much, cause, i just don't roll like that, but we had so so much fun. The party itself was so much fun, leather infused...and well, silence is golden. (thank you so much to steven and johnathan) To protect the innocent i will leave my telling of the night at that !!!!!!
Moving on - - - - we got home yesterday after eating at the Dumpling House (yes, i can't believe they named it that, but it's so so good.) and found that Noah is a little bit not good. He's 11 now and he has these tumors on his body, just little cysts really....except that this one on his neck, over the last four days grew really big and is now open. It's horrible and we are in total shock, he was up all night last night licking and stuff. Poor guy. Kev is trying to get him in to get it removed, but it's just totally heartbreaking. he's so damn helpless, and so so adorable. So good vibes and wishes for Noah please !!!! updates to follow.

ain't gonna let it go


Ain't gonna lie. I threw a pseudo party for kevin last Wednesday night. It was his birthday, too much fun on a school night. We both paid a visit to the hang over nurse Thursday, but hell, you only turn old once right?
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Tuesday, November 27, 2007

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I can't really say why, i am going to write today, under Mr Kermit. He's been in my memory for a long long time, and i am feeling a bit introspective today, so ........its fitting that Kermit is my header.
for some reason I've been really thoughtful about my social connections lately. Specifically in Philadelphia. I know a lot of people here, over the years, have been part of many social circles and squares for that matter. And yet, have not felt completely and totally secure, or safe...or happy in one. I know diversity is good, in friends....in education and in so many other aspects of our lives. But where I've come from, places I've been, I've always had a core group of friends who i can always lean on. If not one specific person, who sorta grounded me. Here, it's almost as if there are too many acquaintances and not enough solidarity in my social connections.
Originally I had a tight group of friends here, and most, almost (the italics are for you Hil) all of them are now disbanded to other things, to no one person's fault.
Anyway, most recently i guess I've been sensitive to the fact that I've watched some people,in some of these circles, grow closer and closer, and began to wonder .."why haven't we become that close with them ??" That sort of thing. In the end I know sometimes people just click, or sometimes they don't. I feel a little alienated lately though. And I don't like it. I don't like it at all. No Bah Humbug, just...Hmpf ???? (scratches head and plays Sarah McLachlin songs)


barracuda

ps. The deep v necks are not going to stop, at least for a while. sorry dude. i do so so appreciate any comment, even if it's to critique. Thanks. more more more.

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the most cute. Noah man.
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just frickin creepy. isn't it?
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this picture captures the parade pretty well. These huge things moving slowly down the middle of Broadway. Very cool. Was a lot of fun. Sorry for the lack of posts, still getting back into life, and this week is totes busy. So enjoy some pictures for now.
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Friday, November 16, 2007

keep the bourbon on the shelf


I think I got the Clap just from posting this picture on here, but there is something about Dax Shepherd, something very very dirty yes, but something that makes the monster move a little.
Thats all i know about that, and i can't comment anymore on what it all means.
What I will comment on is that it's Friday. It's been a day of good and bad news, and what i can choose to focus on is that I am OK. Things are OK.
We are still planning on doing NYC for Thanksgiving. Still trying to piece together the specifics on what and where we're doing it, but it looks like we'll hit the night on Thanksgiving night, chillin a bit on Wednesday, of course we'll be driving up the NJ Turnpike on Wednesday night, which also means that I'll be in a prescribed coma, as traffic jams and I go together like Tommy Lee and Kid Rock go together. Explosive.
Thats all folks.
Love you the most.
Nate

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

if its in my mind, it's on my face


Just cause. I was scanning someone else's blog and found this Country Western dude. A little cave man-ish, but altogether a hot piece.
Billy Currington.
Have no idea what his music sounds like, don't much care really....thats all i have to say about that.

So, I am feeling better, none of the crazies going on.....feeling totally grounded and on level playing field. As always, i've been trying to make some plans for the future....goals i should say. I've been eye-ing a program to be a Physician's Assistant....but am not too sure i can swing that. I would eventually have to quit working and just do the schooling piece.....I really want to try though, so i am registering, hopefully, for some prerequisite classes.
We'll see.
In other news.
New Music Tuesday worked me out this week. I am going to go broke because of Itunes. Honestly.
Alicia Keys, Seal, The Killers, and oddly enough, i have this very very disgusting pull to buy Celine Dion's new one. Odd. Odd and revolting. If you can help me, please feel free to.

So thanks for all the hotel hot tips people. Usually i get one or two comments on a request i have....alas, i've yet to hear anything.
Poor Nate.
Well, i do love you the most. some times, mostly if you leave a comment or two.

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Resentment is the poison I drink in the hopes you'll die.

Friday, November 9, 2007

Hiny Hiders


I was in one of the airports, and as i was taking a leak and went to leave the bathroom i saw this. They actually call the hing thingy that keeps the stall door locked a HINY HIDER.
Can you stand it diane?
I simply cannot believe it.
At any rate. My sobriety continues and I've had the evening to myself at the house.....loud music and lots of incense. Thats all folks. Things are mucho serene tonight and today. I've had a good day. My man has had a horrible day, and yesterday too. Very busy at his job. My pie hole cries out for him and he ain't home from work yet. poor me...oh wait................Poor Kev. :( This weekend will have to be rejuvinating for him. I will make it so. Oppps, my thoughts turn dark. Gotta go, before this manic entry alienates all of you.

Remember, I love you the most.
Nate
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Wednesday, November 7, 2007

sure looks good to me


Ben Cousins.
Perez just posted about him. I've been watching this for a while. One hot bitch. No question in my mind of the things he can do....or not do. You see he has some pretty severe problems with druggie poo. Yes, druggie poo has mostly messed his life up for good, but man.
The narrative of one of his most recent and offensive situations states that he was found driving with ecstasy, a rolled up dollar with traces of cocaine on it and some Viagra. The images. The dirty dirty thoughts of what that night might have looked like. yow. Just something about being bad, that is so so good.
on another note. Kevin and I are tossing around the idea of Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade. Our bud Chuck usually let's us stay wit him, but he's subletted the place and now we are tossing around the Hotel - or staying at someone else's place, but thinking a hotel might be fun. Suggestions ? Deals ?????
Going running outside today, not sure what that will be like, but looking forward to trying to get back into my fitness.....like Fergie Ferg. I want to run the NYC marathon next year.....i do. If Katie Holmes can do it. I was, by the way, very impressed with that. Good for her. I"ve always loved Joey.
and just leave little Suri alone, ain't her fault daddy is a nutjob.

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

BTW.
No One (Alicia Keys) is working me out. getting me through it......and, her new Album is on MTV.COM, under their Leaked links.
Good stuffs.

you don't appreciaaaate me

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I don't know how or why, i missed the boat on Timbaland's CD. I am into it now, but man, how did i not get into The Way I Are when it first came out? That stupid song comes on and i start to hump the nearest pole. No shit.
So, Kevin took this photo of me in Jackson Square (?) and i loves it. of course, what you should know is that it wasn't posed, i passed out that way....... in the middle of the day. legs up in the air and shit.
I am feeling much better today. you see, well this will be long if i decide to explain it. OK here we go. Since we got back from Nawlins I have been feeling really dizzy and disoriented. To the point of tears a few times.....you see last year i went through a similar thing, and eventually went to the ER because I felt so bad. They never found anything and after about three weeks it went away, i went as far as to get put on some anti-vertigo medications. Well since we got back I've been feeling that same way again. It comes and goes, i am always fine at night time, but mornings until around 4 pm I am in a fog and feel like Britney (more on her in a minute) when she runs over some one's foot. Today felt better and I can't know why. I resigned myself last time that it was anxiety related.....and have been feeling like it's anxiety again. Which totally sucks, because nothing i do gets rid of it (other than to solve my big life issues...which ain't happenin any time soon). I don't know what to think really, but it blows snotty penis rot. Today feels better to some degree and I am grateful for that, and am trying to get work done and accomplish shit before i feel like i am on the Great American Scream Machine again .
Onward and upward.....

Monday, November 5, 2007

which way is down?

Whats up ladies? Starting to get myself in order for life, after a week of binge eating and excessive sleep. Like......a lot of sleep. I am not a sleeper at all, but this past week I have been all kinds of dozing and snoring. Along with that have come some really horrible dreams and shit. Crying in my sleep and everything. Odd. New Orleans wrecked me, absolutely wrecked me. And, made me realize/accept that age is important to pay attention to, as well as to start to re-evalute my limits.
I also haven't been to the gym in two weeks due to everything that has been going on, and my hotel in San Diego had no gym....i know that is also contributing to my sense of outer body-ness, but today marks a return, and this week will no doubt end up in mucho muscle pain.
I took this picture of kevin last week in the condo we rented. We had this huge ass chandelier in the living room area and i took this picture through the light !

Friday, November 2, 2007


I love this pic. It was next door to the condo we were staying in. I can't lie. There were a lot of beautiful places like this one. And it seemed like a charming place.....part of my issue was my own, personal state of mind while we were there. A little less thump thump of the disco ball, and perhaps we'd have been more in tune with things like this house.
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fern frickin heaven. Hairy looking....like many of the mens we encountered down there.
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