you said forever, that you would never...

The hokey smile says it all.

AH.
The start of summer, the end of another year together. For real. Moving into our 7th year together, amazing. And at times unbelievable. To think about how close you can become to another human, spending so much time together. Yet also understanding that there are parts of each other that are still foreign. And thats all good.

Went out to Happy Hour in Rehoboth on Sunday night. And we were in for a surprise. I felt so, well, so far. At one time we knew a lot of people who took up summer residence in RB. Blue Moon was the place to go for happy hour, and you would wait in line to get in. No more. And there we were, not really knowing what to do. We ended up at Aqua? And it was lots of fun, basically knew no one, but we all had fun. Times change folks, like it or not, and you just kinda have to embrace it, accept it.
accept me.
I accept you.
Happy Anniversary Kevin. To many more.
Love always,
nate

here's to pretty girls who went to our beds.....

 

wicked is, as wicked does..

 

jumper....

 

let's waste time...chasing cars

 

Extra Ordinary Thing

round the head for mr cole hamels. Welcome to PHILLY !!

And theres this burning, like theres always been..

No. I am not talking about your penis.
As a matter of fact, let me clear (no pun) things up. In case no one has caught it, or in the event that no one really cares...let me make you care.
The title to each entry (generally) are lyrics....something i've heard on the way to work, something that sticks to me when i hear it, a tune from tv..... As we know, i dig music and lyrics. Sooooooooo - stuff that in your pipe and smoke it.

On to the reason for my explaination. And i tried to find a link to this song, so you could listen to it, because it's the one thing i ask of you, my little readers it's older, but give it a shot. Alas I can't find it anywhere except itunes. I have always loved this song....i think it be good.
Motorcycle Drive By ***** Third Eye Blind
It's not a sad song, it motivated me in a time when things were blurry and still does to this day. When ever I feel the pricks of stress and energy, it can focus me and bring me through.
Now - it may not be so with you, and i appreciate that everyone has their own opinion....but ..but you must listen to it. Thats all I know..so go find it prease.
and, in a strange new concept, you could comment on it. you really could.
and you could get a shout out from me...
Like this.
Wilson - Wilson comments from time to time on my site.....so.

Shout out to Wilson in DC.

See, that would be worth it, right?
Anyway -
Schedule for the Duo. Just cause.
This weekend we are going to Baltimore again...i know i know, we've been going more often...partially because i miss my friends there, but this time to see Denise and her new monkey - Drew....3 months old now ????
Next weekend we are going to the beach....Which beach you might ask???
Rehomo and Bethany Beach.
It also happens to mark our 6th year together....pick your dentures up.
Thats right folks...we here at PhillyDuo will be celebrating at a gay hot spot near you !!
Rehomo Beach - is where we met.
Is where we first kissed, got naked, took a shower together.....ate, drank. It was the first time for everything really. And we just flew from there into our relationship.
At any rate we'll be there to rekindle/celebrate/stir the pot.
In future episodes - weddings, concerts, Ptown, Broadway Bares, Florida for me (nate), and hopefully some Fire Island strewn in there.

And...Lost pissed me off last night. I hate Michael for killing Ana Lucia.

happy thursday.

would you lie with me and just forget the world?

i won't make the trip, i only needed the confirmation number. To have and to hold. Thats all. So I am closing that door. after three months...i am closing the door. I got what i wanted and its done.



Last night i was walking to French class after the gym. It started to hail. Big, fat chunks of ice. Fell on my umbrella. It was a moment.
You know, one of those moments. Like when i was accepted into my grad program, and at the same time i decided to break ties with part of my past...people who were brining me down. As i walked from my apartment to my first class at UMAB.
accomplishment.
Like when i finally broke it off with my last bf and was moving into my new apartment. Alone. It was a moment. i sat on the hardwood floor and just had....a moment.
closure.
I also had a moment last night with the hail hitting me, the sun was ever so slightly peeking through as hail fell from the sky...and i just stopped walking, and looked up from underneath my cheap umbrella at oddity pelting me.
clarity.

Last night, after two hours of pushing my mind's limit (francais) i went home and watched Grey's Anatomy.
Brilliant. The last five minutes of the show found me (at 1am) sobbing.
The soundtrack...i tell ya, i am in touch with all things happening....and cool. Yeah - thats me dude....check it.
They played snow patrol .."chasing cars" as the last song...with the sobbing montage.
Ah.
Too cool man. too f'*&in cool.
alright - suck it
ridgley out.
Nate

what have i done? what have i done? what have i done?

Impulsive and reactionary decision making is bad for you. It is.
For a Monday, I expect a certain amount of anxiety and insanity, i do.
This Monday, May 15th, has been abnormally intense. It was pouring when I had to get up at 7 am and walk Noah. Pouring.
Its soliel bright outside.
but still pouring man.
Really.

30 Seconds to Mars
Snow Patrol


What have i done?

to the light

 

:: arjanwrites music blog ::

:: arjanwrites music blog ::
I like him.
I go to this site once every two hours.
Good times

was it worth you goin down like that?

I am watching the finale of Survivor....yes i still watch it. I like it, shut the hell up.
Oh


And i like aras.
has an ass for days !!! 

such great heights

with coffee in hand.
and happiness inside.
my friday morning. 

the kill

a long time fan of jordan catalono (sp) / jared leto. I have been soooooo not feeling his band "30 seconds to mars"..but just watched their video on MTV for "The Kill"
I dig it. I do.
just thought i'd let you know.

i'm not ready to make nice,
nate 

we're all damaged goods

Yes, the Phillies may stink as bad as Courtney Love's girlie after a hard night of rockin in the good old days of drug addiction...but ....but.
This is a new playa for the Philthadelphia Phillies......

Or....My version of the story.

This is our new house boy.
He cooks, cleans, does windows, and bends over like beckham....and look at those pearly whites, would ya?

ah. all in a days work.
In my days after Blue Ball I have begun to consume all sorts of wonderful products. Come walk with me will ya?
Sunday - slowing into the eating game....mid day started to graze. Sandwich with lots of mayo. Ice Cream. More Ice Cream. (Strawberry Cheesecake Ice Cream is my favorite. I will let go of Heath Bar Crunch types...yup..SCIC) Burrito, Three pieces of Cinnamon toast, half of a chocolate Easter Egg..the big kind. Today - Two hot Cross Buns, muffin from Starbucks....Last night - ice cream.....oh. my god. I can't stop.
And mind you, no gym yet this week, usually we go four times a week. I am republishing myself though this week. And finding some fatty. in myself.

What I love about this week.

• sun
• having safety. with kevin (this weekend was really me projecting past events onto future ones...we had fun and it has made me feel safe). And, as cheesy as it sounds..when i go to bed at night and i have, in one room, the things i love with me (kevin, noah, stella) i feel full. it's good.
• plans for the summer, and upcoming weeks ( I call this upcoming season the "on demand" season. we are on demand. it's fun, and i feel special
• new diesel jeans for me, and for kevin (his are WONDERFUL) mine are ok.
• any song that has a cheerleading, clap your hands theme. (pump it -black eyed peas, SOS)
• thank you notes from friends who we make happy.
• being supportive to those friends who are not happy.
• good frickin TV. Grey's Anatomy is amazing...soundtrack to each episode makes me bawl. Lost is blowing me away ( I LOVE ANA LUCIA ) The Amazing Race - did you see them in their short shorts diving in Australia. ?

alright. thats all i know. hope your happy, or have an action plan on how to get to happy. sometimes the map is more convoluted than you thought...but you get there.

trapeze

The boy who would.

Getting ready for the main event at Blue Ball. This little man was getting ready to perform...it was fun to watch them get all ready...he was slightly embarassed when i took this picture.... 

easy as life

prep for Blue Ball 2006 - Fusion...we helped our friends set up for Blue Ball this past weekend. It was quite an interesting weekend...what i learned....
I am a tired old man....We limited our time out this weekend, which was not totally the plan. Last night we lay down at 7PM for a rest...the closing party started at 10PM and we didn't move until 1AM.
Needless to say we didn't go out last night...and today has been nice, hanging out and just relaxing...so so nice.