her crazy is on a time delay

Do you think they go through some class to prepare for the humiliation of having to perform athletically in the most revealing attire on earth? Let's imagine that class for just a moment.........and moving on.

We just got communication that planning for weekends in Fire Island are underway. How happy and grateful. Just thinking about that place makes me be able to live through the dark winter....which i am hatin on right now. Sayville is warming my heart.

Tomorrow I go for further professional development. So I won't be in the office, which is nice...and a easy slither into the weekend. Which is not booked at all.

What to do? What to do?

and i'm wasting everyday

That damn Mika.

Have you guys heard that man? He is brilliant....I can't wait to hear the whole cd. I downloaded another of his songs, Happy Ending, and man...that shite is hot.

Today's weather and consequent mood have run flat. Everything - EVERYTHING is dirty. The ground is gross....and it's ugly. Everything is ugly outside. Sooooo on the way to work today i bought some things for my office. I bought some Stargazer Lilly and some Pussy Willows...(yes Serial Mom, shut it) It makes me feel better. Better I am.

something that i have been thinking about today. At the gym this morning there was a guy there who, has some sort of career in porn....I know this because he was profiled in the Philly H!X... anyway, he was at the gym today and i found myself thinking about him and his decision making. He appears to be completely shy and sorta introverted.....and yet is pasted in publications. I just wonder, with all this BS stuff going, how many people get really messed up in things and make horrible horrible decisions? Now, i am sure he is perfectly content and ok with his decisions.............and i see nothing wrong with this sort of thing, should your lifestyle permit those choices.....all the power, to the people.....but Anna Nicole and Britney and....just scary, and i can't help but think that it all starts out small and pressure to make bigger and badder decisions are natural in this sort of career...and environment. (which isn't to say that you can't do it all, and make good decisions....) Just got me thinking alot. I am sure it's fine, but I think it odd and interesting all the same. I just wish the best for people.....Thats all !!!

Ciao fellas.

with the thoughts i'd be thinkin'

Yet another Monday, full of yuck. I swear.....I am def not taking advantage of my weekends. I come back into work feeling really crappy about being here. Although, if one were to have watched me this weekend...well I ate a lot of crap...and feel so gross today. My stomach roll is getting on my nerves. bad like.

well anyway, we slept in yesterday like champs, and that was fun, but man do i feel drained. We went out to some bars on both nights, so it makes sense that i feel like i do today.

I am so enthralled with Ms. Spears, i really can't imagine how this is going to end. Not enough that she had a psychotic break and shaved her head......i thought....she's gonna hang low now, gonna take some time to regroup...but no...girlfriend went out this weekend with a wig on and partied it up. I can't believe it. I really cannot. So sad. Really.

well, enjoy your monday and enjoy Tom Brady here... and thanks to wilson and to anon. for comments section, i just wasn't sure if it was working................i guess i am just not all that interesting lately...sorry kids.

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i don't shine if you don't shine

this biatch worked my pouuussssyyy out. At Zumanity. that blur of silver are metal hoops......and she flew up in the air spinning them around her entire body..........just unreal...i nearly peed myself with happiness. and a desire to be her.

Anyway.
One of the patrons at a blackjack table told me i looked like Quentin Tarentino.....I passed out. Thanks for a blatant insult. I look like a Garbage Pail Kid ??

Several people also asked if Kevin and I were brothers. Which always led to....well ???? Disclosure of partnership...which was always met with happiness and curiousity....thankfully no negative. Which tells me a lot. And makes me happy.

This whole Anna Nicole Smith tragedy really haunts me. It's hard to believe that she has died, and even harder to believe that the world isn't mourning her, just obsessing over the paternity of her child....it's sick. And then i think of her son who died...true tragedy and true motivation for my profession and helping addiction and mental health.

Va Gee Day

So anyway.
To wrap up the Vegas stuff.
Kevin stayed in bed for the first day....and night, he was still sick, I felt horrible foor him, and jumped from the casino floor, back up to our room...(MGM Grand)...The following morning we woke up pretty early and had our first food in 24 hours.
I won money, alot....well for me it was alot...at the Bellagio playing BlackJack. Pro Playa I am. I also threw a few chips Kevin's way and he won a good deal of money too, which turned our trip into something more fun....and easy. Ended up at the Stratosphere - and I basically had a small stroke on that stupid stupid ride that shoots you up in the air....Horrifying.
Eventually we got tired and snippy with one another....which resulted in us getting tickets to see Zumanity. I thought it was great, really did. I dug it and we had great seats. Kevin came several times in his pleasure. He loved it.
We ended up at some gay bar called 8 1/2, or Pirahna.....it was cool, but we were definatly not feelin it...Kevin still feeling a bit funky from his sickness.
Saturday was the day we were leaving, and our good friend Linda just happened to be checking into the Wynn, and staying there for work for 12 days......so we grabbed our stuff and went to her hotel. I LOVED it there. LOVED. Her room was amazing, the hotel was pure luxury. We sat by the pool and had cocktails and then went to play more blackjack. Ended up meeting so many cool people. Two guys from Texas (straight) and really cool. We ended the last two hours at Mandalay Bay in their private Foundation Room. Felt like a celebrity.... so cool, so cool.
Ended up running to the airplane...........
Home now and hating this place....snow. Cold.
but love it too.

never can say goodbye

taken about two minutes before we almost missed our flight home.......

tao

Part 2:
So for most of the first day we were there Kevin stayed in the hotel room, coming out a little bit at a time, he was still pretty sick, which totally blew ass. So basically I walked around our hotel for the first day and night....until well in the AM.....got a pretty good drink on and pretty much lost some money. The next morning we woke around 5 am...i told kevin that someone said Anna Nicole Smith died....we were both speechless.....we woke up and went for the buffet at this point.....considering we hadn't eaten in over 24 hours.
to be continued.....and for the record. WE LOVE VEGAS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stratosphere

Foundation Room at Mandalay Bay

the best part of my losing streak

Part 1:
Our flight out of Philly to Vegas was early Thursday morning. Around 9pm Wednesday night Kevin started to get violently ill. In the years we've been together, I have not seen him vomit. He did so Wednesday night. Our alarm was set for 4:30 AM.....as you can see by the picture, we made it to Vegas, but for a few hours, a few very stinky and painful hours, Nate and Kevin were almost missing our flight. We did get up...and go, and my poor man was hurtin. I felt so horrible but didn't know what to say or do.......

i promise you it wont' happen again

i got waddle. yes i do.

i've also got a burnt tongue from the hot chocolate that i got just a few minutes. i needed that hot chocolate today. It's way cold. bitter.

and now my taste buds are scorched.

my momma got off and is home, safe and sound. it was hard being "on" all week. Having to lead my daily life and then run around trying to entertain and visit. Exhausting i tell ya. Which is why when saturday came and went we had a long night out. and yesterday...i've not slept like that in a very long time. all day long...napping on the floor of our living room. Snuggly and warm. and relaxed. I don't have much to comment on today, as i've stated, work has been less than motivating, and monday's seem to be the hardest....however we have a short week this week, of course...it's counter pointed against my short fuse.

am i too dirty, am i too flirty

The week is winding down. My mom's visit is ending, and we move on to looking forward to the upcoming weeks. For sure.

Today is hard. I have a packed schedule with clients and I don't feel like doing a damn thing. Have been in a rut lately, not wanting to work. It's bad. I have to start thinking about what's next for me, career wise. Professionally. I guess.

Anyway, this weekend is slow, have to drive momma up to Newark, NJ airport...and then free to do nothing, which will feel good - after running around all week. And spending way too much money. Totally too much. But baby's got some new shoes...

Got what i thought was a horrible hair cut....a day later realized that it was a great hair cut, and now....just not sure about it. At any rate, i got my hair cut and my feelings about it are generally the way my mind has been working lately...non - sensible.

Hope your all well.

Nate