live to tell

I am able to live to tell. Yup sirree bob.

I am also a year older now, officially. 33. Not a bad age. Not a bit upset about the age itself.

The party was great. kev estimates around 60-70 peeps were there. I would agree...it went by so fast. I totally fucking needed it. To feel more grounded.
As I have moved through time and space I've picked up many many things - friends, tricks, bills, bad decisions, good decisions, career moves, jobs, relationships....and to have many of them together at one time - a wedge of time represented by friends - well it was cathartic....

The summer is going by so fast, so quick - at the beginning of summer our list of things to do was long, now we have only a few more things.....big things though.
I cancelled my trip to Upstate and Montreal for next weekend - i am just not in a place to enjoy that sort of thing.....and to subject others to that ..well i just think it better to hold off on that....so i will perhaps go by myself in early fall -

instead of going up there this weekend, we have been invited to go to fire island again - for the Pines Party - so we'll go there...its a good place to be, there is nothing more relaxing and soothing to me.....

One last thing -
Pinky has pictures of Jared Leto in NYC, looking so very good,- so very very good - just scroll down his site and you'll find it......
I have had this real bad bad twitch in my pants for Jared Leto, ever since he flew into my life as Jordan Catalono on My So Called Life..........scratch scratch scrath.