Thursday, October 27, 2005

just like drew

It's decided. We are going to Allegria on Sunday night. Not Roxy, thanks for the words of encouragment W, but we can't do both nights. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Too old and tired. Poor us.
Watched Scream last night............fantabulous. I love that damn movie......... Posted by Picasa

Kip

Tis he.....kip "suck the chrome off a tailpipe" purdue. Posted by Picasa

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

here i am...just for a minuto

So - busy busy. It's all good, but feeling not great...my glands are swollen and sore throat, had it for a couple weeks and now it's back. The rain won't stop coming and it's frickin cold alll of a sudden. Least i forget though how lucky i am - had a really great weekend, went to a party in Bucks County - a big bash - "Boys in the Country" is what the theme was. It would have been better had it not rained - but all together it was lots of fun, still having to de - booze a bit.
Sunday we drove around the country a while, went to New Hope to go to some Frech Bakery call "C'est La Vie". I needn't review what i ate that day - but it was good and i shudder to think about this weekend - Halloween, going to NYC - more than likely having to take my shirt off....regardless..i will try not to be too crazy about it.

Observations from Nate

  • Madonna is FULL tilt man. I loved loved loved her Documentary - and think this is going to be much fun when it comes time to see her blow the roof off my head with the new cd.
  • Sprite Boy writes about how his lips blew up due to an allergic reaction. Had me pissing in my pants fully ------ but whats even more funny is that my mom gets the same thing when she comes to visit us. She can't drink the water or else her lips get huge and they hurt her bad. This is funny to me, but is painful to her - she can't brush her teeth without bottled water or anything.......its just the strangest thing i think...but anyway Sprite's description of it is hilarious and totally off the hook.
  • In the new Out magazine Kip Pardue talks about a new gay character he is playing. I think Kip Pardue is one hot mother f#$@er. and doesn't get the attention he should.
  • Kevin and I can't decide what to do - Roxy Saturday night, or Allegria on Sunday night. We took off Monday.

Thanks all for now. I will have to try and find a picture of Kip Pardue. And thats all.

i

know.

nate

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

For those who ignore it, history repeats itself.

Time goes by so slowly.
yes it does Madge. I am into it. INTO The Song.
Hung the F UP momma. So play it again little ipodatronic.
So it does.

And it's Tuesday. And i am hung over from the last five days. I was at a conference for EAPA, which is my professional organization. It was long and tedious. and has left me feeling hungover, mentally.
You see it's mostly mental health professionals - and the workshops are mostly all about bettering oneself in some way or another, how to help the client activate, how to help the client help you, how to help the client get off the druggolas..........on and on and on. And for the most part you can take tools away with you. But the down side to that is the self inventory you scroll through over the five days. and i am sick of thinking. about myself. let alone my clients.

Many ways to improve yourself, many many many.
and it's easy as shit to tell others what they need to do, but not as easy for yourself.

At any rate I had a good weekend, and it was filled with great meals. This upcoming weekend should be more great, greater, mostly more great.
Have a cool party on Saturday all day to attend. Can't wait. And it's only Tuesday. But its chest day, and i like chest day.
its fast and easy......or hard and fast,......or
oh well, have a good one. talk soon and send me comments.

Natie...

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

walkin and talkin


Happy Humpday Kiddo !
What the shits up? Not too much here, just working through the day trying to keep my head above water. This week is good, real good. Only working til today, then at a conference for Thursday through Monday. So it's nice to be out of the office.
This weekend was great as well. SUnday was Philly's Outfest. Basically on Sunday it's one big street festival, with booze and food, and well my friends all call it the Gay Flea Market.....anyway it was fun, we stayed out way too late on Sunday night, sorta didn't feel great on Monday, but what the hell.
What I find most interesting about those sort of things is the boundaries, personal boundaries, which people ignore. I could be over estimating this, but at least 20 people came up and kissed me, and these are not people whom i am close to. It's nice that there is an open feeling, but still...i don't know where yo lips been, what they been suckin on......germs.
Anyway - nothing i can do about it.........
Jared Leto.
Please email me.
Natie.

oh yeah, i had two other things to write about today.
One:
Yesterday I was waiting for the subway and some woman came up to and saw that i was checking my voice mail on my cell phone. She actuallly tapped me on the shoulder and said
"can i borrow your cell phone to call my mother please?" Now WTF? What could she have been thinking? There was no way in hell i was going to give her money, and that she asked to call her mom...she was over 40 years old. And typically i am the sort of person that would do something like that, allow some complete stranger to use my cell. I didn't though and it felt good and get your own damn phone honey. It's 2005.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005


ogi oggie. smugga wagga wigwam Posted by Picasa

Monday, October 10, 2005

on the wagon

I am definatly on the Jakey wagon. Brokeback Mountain's trailer gave me goosebumps and a severe sense of excitment. I also saw Proof last week and he was amazing in it. i am really excited to see more of him, didn't love Donnie Darko...but think that he's made some good career choices....and he's smokin hot.

Weekend was great, more on that later.....hope everyone's Monday is going ok.

Thursday, October 6, 2005

Take it and let it be

A major part of my life, and thought process, has been formed by reading. At an early age, it was reading books to take me away, since I am an only child and my mom worked till 9 or 10 every night and my dad was a raging alcoholic / sometimes addict. I was alone a lot.
A whole lot. I wouldn't trade that for the world, I wouldn't. I learned how to be alone and self reliant and creative (resilient in adulthood). I mean, my mom gave me all the love and care possible, but I was alone after school a lot. I was outside until it got dark, but after that I would read. And I read the best books. Bridge to Tarabethia (sp), The Chronicles Of Narnia - all of them, A Wrinkle in Time (these are some of the more popular ones), Tales of a 4th Grade Nothing, Superfudge....anywayyyyyyy
I find myself in the same place at certain times in my life. Where I read to escape.
This past weekend I read The Dogs Of Babel. In less than 14 hours...It was a long long long car ride. And started the Oprah book ya see here.....A Million Little Pieces. I am almost done it now, as we speak. But I had to get it out. This book is amazing. I
t holds particular importance to me because of the subject matter, but on the whole, it's just great.
It's a memoir of this guys experience of rehab. The descriptors of his abuse are enough in itself...but it's his style, and what he says. Not a believer in the whole AA mode of treatment and 12 step programs.....he still comes out on top, from what I can tell (otherwise he wouldn't be writing a book)
It's good and there is much to be said about it, and I won't bore you on it, but it's moved me.
Ironically - today is National Depression Screening Day, and I did screenings on people for four hours today. I was sitting in a room and people would just stop in and do the screening, at a lull in the day I was reading the book and started to cry (the parent/child relationship thing got me bad) and someone came in.
"Hi, my name is Nate, and I am NOT NOT NOT depressed - simply crying because I am over joyed and gay, and that's what we do."

on that note, have a good day kids and go loose yourself in someone else's story - it feels good.

Nate

Wednesday, October 5, 2005

ANEROS and You

So, The very special device I listed below, the white thingy...is in fact called
The Aneros. While we were in P town our friends bought it, the next morning i walked into their bedroom and one of them was looking a little .....worn. I thought it was the 5th of Jack Daniels he drank, however I was wrong.
My friend was, in fact, using the Aneros as we talked.....anyway, i never would have know. They loved it, so we went out and got one.
perhaps you should too. thats all i got to say. Here's what the site has to say about it:

"With the Aneros, men can achieve strong continuous, non-ejaculatory, full body orgasms previously unattainable through conventional sexual techniques. We refer to this type of orgasm as the "Dream Orgasm," while many of our users call it the "Super-O."


And mister Sprite Boy Heself guessed it correctly, ask him how he knew this? Just lucky guess? Me thinks not. !!!!
In other news, i had the chance to read
Steph and Alek's site and made a horrifiing discovery. My posts were strikingly similar to theirs.....I can't read their site while i am at work, as the server tells me their site is "ilicit", so i had no idea that Gavin Henson and David Beckham were on their site too, although i did see the pics elsewhere. Anyway....sorry for that.

I gotta run, but will update later.....saw Proof last night. Good. MOre on that !!!! and Jake.

Tuesday, October 4, 2005

lifting things all over the place



I had to, i had to. I got the picture from her intoxicating site. But i had to make it mine. It had to appear here. David Beckham...in his underwear, touchin his naughties.
I had to. Please forgive.
Also another thing. Have you had this flavored water yet? I am addicted. Addicted I tell ya.

oh and another thing

dear old just jared pointed us in this direction on such a nice early morning. Here you see Gavin Henson...being, well being smokin hot, holding his ball. to be charlotte church, or that ball for that matter.

enjoy your day

Nate

the ladder of inference

some days being in a therapist role is helpful in my personal life. some days it's not. ususally though it really acts as a clear window with which to see myself and my life. Perspective and thankfulness. it can always be worse than it is right this very second. and i am often remineded of that in my work.
even still, home life can present challenges which intrude upon my every thought. every.
thought.

one of the more interesting things i have read in a while is material based on the ladder of inference. my boss is big into this.

"we live in a world of self generating beliefs which remain largely untested. WE adopt beliefs because they are based on conclusions, which are inferred from what we observe, plus our past experience. Our ability to achieve the results we truly desire is eroded by our feelings that:
our beliefs are the truth
the truth is obvious
our beliefs are based on real data
the data we select are the real data."

take any situation you are in. you look to those around you for feedback, and you extract feedback even when it's not given to you. a certain facial response means something specific from ron, because betty gave you the same facial response a month ago and it meant that you were wrong. when in reality, ron's facial response meant something totally differnet. in that way you've gone up the ladder of inference...and you are wrong to do so. interesting i think. i do it all the time, all the time.

but then again, sometimes a cigar is just a cigar.
so smoke up maestro.


(in case you couldn't tell, not a good night and day in the nate/kevin camp.)

"So I had to break the window
It just had to be
Better that I break the window
Than him or her or me"
Fiona Apple