feel so nice, oh yeah, you feel so nice

but i'm flying so high,
high off the ground,
when your around..............

It's friday and lady....it's time to relax, time to just be.
Good weekend planned, who knows where it will bring us, but even the cold air outside won't deter this mood of mine. It's all good, thats all i know. It's all good.
Kevin gave me a Tumi Sling today.
Figure it out...i love it, fits nicely.
They took that picture of me in the pool last year.
sign up for french class today, starts next week.

Oh - I forgot to tell you. If you see me at the gym, and i happen to have my ipod attached to my arm and the Shur Earphones in my ear....I CANNOT HEAR YOU WHEN YOU TRY TO TALK TO ME. THEY ARE NOISE CANCELLATION HEADPHONES.....so.
Let me be. I know I know, we can talk later though honey.

Hot Temptations.
Neighty.

I wanna see you move

Let me see you stand up.
Good. Good.
Now.
Bend over.
Very good.
Very good indeed.
Now….what are you wearing.? ……………

Dirty. Spring-like thoughts.


Life lesson for march 16, 2006:
The porous, sponge-like material with which you eat your Ethiopian food with, will expand to 40x it’s original size once inside your intestines. You will feel like a hot air balloon, careening through the open sky on a hot, humid, sticky mid-July day, carrying five very large, big boned ladies.
And you’ll be scared to put on your tank top at the gym…at which point you’ll develop many scenarios, in your head, in which all parties working out at the gym will look at you and laugh laugh laugh their asses off thereby sending you home weeping like an ugly stepchild who overstayed his welcome at the big house.

Then you realize this is just a blog and it reflects nothing in real life situations.

vouloir le beurre et l'argent du beurre -
Nate
PS - you'll never guess. We went to an ethiopian place last night for dinner. Good times.

"Now I hope you don’t get mad at me, but I told nate you was a freak“
He said he wants a slut
hope you don’t mind,
I told him how you like it from behind

Band Aid Covers the Bullet Hole

As doctors, as friends, as human beings, we all try to do the best we can.
But the world is full of unexpected twists and turns, and just when you've gotten the lay of the land... the land underneath you shifts and knocks you off your feet.
If your lucky, you end up with nothing more than a flesh wound, something a band aid will cover.
But some wounds are deeper than they first appear, and require more than just a quick fix.
With some wounds you have to rip off the band aid, let them breath.
and give them time....
to heal.

get your hand off of my trigger

step 1: sing really loudly in the shower, with the windows open and don't care what the neighbors will say. get the words wrong, no one cares....

step 2: think about your good times, and get ready for new ones. and maybe, just maybe, this can become a good time too.

step 3: know that those in your life are there for a reason, to support, love and saturate you with all that is good.

step 4: breath deep breaths.

step 5: have some sex.

step 6: DON'T catastrophize.

step 7: buy some pretty.

step 8: be happy that something like this happened, for some people this is a dream - a big fat wet one.

just breath

It really is what it looks like. This summer we got up pretty early one morning on Fire Island - after a day of rain, the sun was up and woke us up...... we went down to the beach with Noah ---- such a good feeling. Can't beat it really. The cold, endless water waking you up. Today is like that feeling a little bit, to go for a run and feel normal in some way. Not that normal isnt' relative. Wish you were here !!! Nate and Noah

smile like you mean it hoe,and put your hands up

I know, I know.

I am done.
Just know -
C'était un bon temps. Merci.

I was singing so loud on the way to work this morning, once again listening to The Killers - Hot Fuss (i come to this cd when the air is thick for natey), singing so loudly, with the sunroof wide open, that my lips were vibrating and za-za-zipping along so fast that it tickled me and caused me to loose my shizzle lady.
It was then that i knew i was repaired to some degree. Nuff said.

This weekend is slow, very slow and it needs to be.
I think we'll do nothing....I will definately go for a run today after work, first run outside. The race will be in May so i have to start training for it now....or soon anyway.

I am also going to try and register for this French class thing....je suis desire a parle francais.....tsk tsk tsk..
i cant remember too much French, but I am smart and ...it's all good.
at any rate

hope your weekend is full of tawdry acts of self satisfaction, or dual satisfaction - triple if it suits you..................
can we go to nyc this weekend ?
kidding....i gotta go, before i make myself and all of you sick !!!
do something good for yourself, and then do it again....
and remember the seven deadly sins are there for a reason.
Love ya love ya,
Nate

careful what you wish for

and be sure not to use two wishes on the same damn thing, because the third will rally to bite you in the ass, jerkoff.

_____________________________________________________
Always in my life, i've kept a log..a journal, diary...whatever . I don't write in it all the time, in fact there may be 8 months at a time when I don't write.
I always thought I'd be a writer or something like that....but it just never materialized.
Anyway with recent events I am writing full throttle in it....which ultimately illustrates that something is awry.
And there's no use beating around the bush about it....we had a very surreal weekend - reflective of a time in our relationship when things went bump in the night and you felt the bruise for weeks at a time. I am being cryptic, i know. but it has to be that way for now.
The point of my rant is basically to process it (which is hard to do without an objective position).
Ultimately I see that we make some poor decisions (could they be good decisions in disguise ???) for lack of better descriptors, and I - alone - seem to be the one who gets stuck with it in my head.
And it's totally my fault. Kevin has great capacity to get through situations when I am not.
Getting through.
Situations.

In a less blurred area of our lives - we are planning vacations soon, and i can't wait. Ptown is going to be smashing again - for sure. I have spent a lot of time lately playing with imagery and where it can take me. One of the playlists on my Pod has a song by Ben Jelen (don't ask) called Wicked Little Town. When we were in Ptown this summer some dude got up on stage at one of the shows we went to and he played, and sang this song. In his underwear. And he was smokin. Hot. I use this image, somedays. I do. Honest...and it's not sexual. It puts me in a better time and place, and allows me to breath. Which is a good thing.

Thats all, I feel better already.
One little piece at a time we spread the love - up and down the east coast....spread the love lady. Thats what we say.
The flip side of all this is that maybe we have more places to stay when we go a-travellin'. All i know is there is a towel in my laundry basket and it needs to be washed.

SWAK -
Neight

never on a sunday

i present to you, the newest model for camel toe 2006. it's called speed orange. and it's all yours in your fantasy......that little black streak ------

so.
moving right along, this weekend was special and fun. Went to baltimore and had a really great time. Had dinner at bob and david's....first time for everything i say. Had scallops for the first time, loved them...i am suddenly acquiring a taste for seafood...we'll see though, the scallops may have satiated that need for a while.
We started cocktailing when we landed in baltimore...as we were doing so they were talking about the fillers in the bar scene in baltimore, since we were not familiar with the newbies.....fun. One guy, ethan, was described as the "biggest bottom in baltimore", which was hysterical to some degree....as i am intrigued by the whole "power bottom" thing. We met him out that night and it was fun.....he had some interesting pictures on his cell phone...thats all i know.
Anyway - it was great to hang out with old friends....i miss them all dearly.

Not much else going on...some tastings this week. Symphony and a potluck of sorts this week. Whats up out there?
Whats the news from all over the place. I am constantly amazed by the distance this blog reaches on the site meter.

who is farthest from Philadelphia? Comments?

thank you very mucho mister roboto.........dummmmo

It's not all that bad a day on Exile Island as far as i'm concerned. Nick is all "hi" and I am all like "blah blah blub..abs, pecs and homo say what?" He actually makes me nervous just watching him on tv. But then that passes and my mind goes amuck.....and then kevin smacks the shite out of me.

Anyway - hope all are well and that Friday is buring bright in your pants. it is in mine. its really mother- of- mary cold out there today. It's a nice day to have a White Russian, or a dark shaded one if you choose...really matters not. ..just enjoy and drink up.

I am addicted to a food item right now. I keep getting really upset stomach from it, but i buy them and don't stop until it's all gone. Sesame sticks....those little crunchy things.....A - D - D- I- C- T- E-D !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Intervention will soon be needed. My ever increasing Britney Bump is almost enough to make me stop, but not quite. Speaking of....she's sorta on again off again isn't she. I have seen those caps from Will and Grace and she looks pretty good actually. I don't know. What can I do? I am hoping she'll hit it again. Not it, as in Federline hit it, as in her career.
Going to Baltimore tomorrow to visit friends, should be much fun. Have to get out of here again...last weekend we sorta did damage...at least i did. Kevin seems to be hitting his "i can party like a rock star" phase and i am doing the opposite.....disappear like Debra Winger type act. I just can't hang. Actually I can hang, it's the days after, when i put my shoes on the wrong feet and go out in public and my face is all cracked out. No moisturizer helps me feel refreshed. Anyway hope all is well in your place...and i hope your place is well. swell. good. happy. full of fresh tulips perhaps?
I love fresh tulips...kevin...i love fresh tulips in case you were wondering......

alright. love ya love ya.
oh - -PS Madame Denise is about to pop out her spawn...........any day now. I can't wait to hear all about it and come see the littlest monkey of them all.

i'm just me, i'm in love, nothing less, nothing more

have a good day peeps. after a few days of clouds and blurry vision, i can see a little better today. Thank god, it's always that way after a too short weekend and wednesday feels a little bit easier than monday and tuesday...
more

a little more personal by LL and NR

Yes it's Thursday. I don't feel any better than yesterday, minus the fact that I find myself unbearable.
EVERYTHING is annoying me. Irritability is high right now. Except towards my dear dear husband. Kevin is totally being fun and funny this week, and i needed it. Real bad.
Wait, wait wait. I am not in a bad place, just irritable, like ......i can't deal with one specific co worker, i can't handle my new headphones for my ipod and how they are fitting in my ears (they were expensive), my ipod is on shuffle and it keeps playing alanis morrisette - i love her, but wtf?) i can't seem to find the right bag to carry my gym clothes, shoes, and work stuff in.......my wallet is too stuffed with gift cards to stores that i never go to - but stay in my wallet in case i surprisingly find myself in one of those stores, i can't find my 10 pass train card that i purchased yesterday, I rented "House of Flying Daggers" and "The Fog" last night and fell asleep 10 minutes into the first movie - i rented said movies because i thought that Lost was a rerun and that Project Runway was not on this week, my gas is really really raw today.

We were the only same sex couple at Valentines dinner the other night. Strange feeling, liberating in a way...to be aware of ones self in such an acute way.

The boy posted here is the dude on "grey's anatomy"....which is my new focus in life. He used to be a model....SURPRISE...what is most surprising is that according to my google search, he is married with 5 children.
Talk about a buzz kill.


Eat out !
get fatter than me.
Natale

How to Save a Life

1. Go to see Wicked on Broadway. Laugh, cry and enjoy the best production you've ever seen. It will take your breath away and leave you dying for more.

1.5. After show spend two days in NYC, going to Century 21, Barrage, Posh, Splash, Gym and Therapy. Love it.

2. Watch the men's Luge at the Olympics and be stunned by the beauty, all aspects of the beauty.

3. Play in the snow. As a matter of fact fall down, head first into the snow covered street while running away from a would-be snow ball attacker and cut your face, bruise your chest, and bruise both hips. You'll for sure know your alive that way.

4. Love your boyfriend, cuddle during the cold snowy days and watch him shovel snow in front of your house.

5. Watch JLO and LL COOL J's New video "Control Myself" and fall in love with that biatch all over again.

6. have throw down, eat it, smack it, move it, push it, love it, sit on it, saddle it, love potion sex on Valentine's Day.....

i don't know what to say, speechless and vapidly wanton

holy holy toe. the toe, and i can think of nothing else .
I know everyone has this guy pasted on their sites, but Nicholas Lemons is making my P Q like nothing on this earth. besides kevin rw

i hope your happy, now that you've chosen this

I dig the look joseph fiennes. dig it up and down.

Another Little Hole

(((( I had a real real nice picture to show you diane, but blogger won't work, so we have to wait. Just read.))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))



I actually cannot believe that it's Friday. Having said that - thank god it's fffffa fa fa friday.
Of course, nothing too much to do tonight, a little too much to do tomorrow night.
sounding off:

• James Frey. I don't know what to think. To be honest, all this media, and i still love the book. I don't care, no matter how many times Orka flips flops on this one. I think it was a good book, i read it and wasnt' thinking that the entire thing was true. I dont' know. I just can't see his poor face on tv looking like he wants to kill himself anymore. I wonder if Oprah is making a stink about it too because she can get $$$ out of this publicity?
• Aqualung. Good shite my friend. Try it out.
• Am reading a new book by the name of Prep. About teenage girls in a Boarding School. I LOVE IT.
• Aveda products. Love them, love the way they smell. THe hair products make my head look like it hasn't been washed in two months. Greasy. But i love it, so i use it. STUPID GIRLS.
• I cannot access YOUTUBE.COM from my worksite and it's making me feel deprived and upset. Very upset. I tried to watch a clip from wicked and cannot do it from here. I hate it.
• Running. It's good. Real good. But my groin feels like it's being stretched for a new body part to be inserted up in there. Ouch hooker.
• I have decided to change. Yes i have. If i see someone who i see on a daily basis, and dont' ever say hi, even if i don't know them...i am going to say hi anyway. to be friendly. Its ridiculous to not acknowledge that we are all part of a small community in this city. Philly. Philly. Silly. Kevin says hi to anyone, and it makes me jealous. So there.